The Pause Is Part of the Pattern⏸

This week has been its own kind of emotional rollercoaster. My life shifted in a way I both did and didn’t see coming — a dramatic change that feels like a new chapter cracking open before I’ve even found my place on the page. I’m not sure if I’m ready for it, but ready or not, I’m already in the car, already on the track, already moving faster than I expected.

Pause.

Have you ever looked at your yarn stash and realized all you have left are scraps? Little leftovers from projects past. As you stare at the mountain of tiny yarn balls, there’s that moment when you feel overwhelmed — wondering if you can make anything at all.

Pause.

Every new idea, every craft — whether it’s writing, coding, or crocheting — has built‑in moments of stillness. In crochet, it’s the turning chain or that quiet second when you hold your work up to the light to see if the pattern is taking shape. In code, it’s the breath you take before running the program, checking the logic one more time. In writing, sometimes the only movement is the soft blink of the cursor — a tiny metronome keeping time as you gather yourself.

Pause.

Life has pauses too. Not the dramatic kind — nothing cinematic — but the quiet ones.

The ones that show up in the middle of a week you didn’t plan. In the middle of a change you didn’t ask for or even want. In the middle of a sentence you were speaking when you suddenly lost your train of thought.

Sometimes life feels like standing in front of your yarn stash full of nothing but scraps, wondering how you’re supposed to make something whole out of so many pieces. Other times it feels like walking into the yarn aisle at Hobby Lobby — the possibilities so boundless they almost swallow you.

And in between those two extremes, you’ll find the stillness — the turning chain, the logic check, the soft blink of the cursor — where you gather yourself before the next row begins.

That’s the part we forget to honor. The pause is not a waste of time. It’s part of the pattern.

Life moves in rows and repeats. It runs by calling functions of logic. It’s a collection of stitches and steps, of motion and moments of breath.

So for now, I’m letting the pause be the pause. Every good story has filler episodes, every pattern has a turning chain, every program has background processes.

This is just mine. And the next row starts when I’m ready.

“Even in the pauses, the program is still running in the background.”

🌸 🌸 🌸

Alisha Kemmerlin
Founder of CodeInTheHook — where anime energy, crochet creativity, and coding chaos come together.
“Crafting code and crochet projects while surviving my own filler episodes.”